The Modern Maze of Isolation

The Fear of Releasing Yourself From Digital Chains

The contemporary lifestyle is increasingly encasing us within invisible walls, breeding a widespread sense of isolation that's reaching epidemic proportions.

As the years accumulate, so does my apprehension towards forming deep connections—with individuals, with communities. This trepidation seems to stem from an unexplainable anxiety about collaboration and interaction.

This phenomenon, perplexing yet undeniably intertwined with the act of creation, might be attributed to the overwhelming vastness of our global village. The sheer scale of humanity induces a kind of inertia.

There was a time my concerns were limited to whether a gathering of a hundred would attend my performance.

Now, the fear has escalated to a global stage—worrying if my existence even registers on the world's radar.

This fear is crippling.

I harbor aspirations of monumental change; to disconnect from the digital threads that bind and step into the realm where art and audience intersect in the tangible world.

My core being shouts a resounding "Yes!"

Yet, the social self replies, "Absolutely not—you'll never find work again!"

The essential self is vibrant, adventurous, imaginative, open, and trusting.

Conversely, the social self is fraught with uncertainty, concerned over judgment, stifled creativity, financially insecure, and cloaked in solitude.

Navigating from a social world paradigm, towards my essential self is my life's mission.

I sense it deeply.

And I fear it deeply.

Because I worry it won’t be enough.

Because I worry I won’t be enough.

Still, I sense it deeply.

The path is not yet clear, but by embracing stillness and tuning into my inner voice, the direction begins to unveil itself.

And yes, it's daunting. 

But I’m trying to do it anyway.